i want to die but i dont want to kill myself i want to eat but i dont want to be fat i want to cry but i dont want to be weak i want to speak but i dont want to be dramatic i want to live but i dont want to be here i want to tell but i dont want to be an attention seeker i want to cut but i dont want to bleed i want to sleep but i dont want to wake up i want to heal but i dont want to forget -f.g