i have a friend and we have both wanted someone special to talk to for ages as in relationships and whatever we still talk about those stuff but she has someone who is a friend but they do couple stuff and do all the things we used to yearn over she still talks to me about wanting a boyfriend and it angers me because she already has something so close to it while i have nothing i know she is a really kind person and doesn’t mean to and i know i should be happy for her i hate when she talks about him but i also want to hear all about it as she is my bestfriend and i feel interested in a way im not sure if im being selfish i dont even know anymore and i have nobody to talk to it about because she is who i tell everything all she talks about is him because shes excited to have someone like that and she ignores me to talk to him too she means no harm and she is really understanding and i have talked to her about it as unseriously as i could but she still subconsciously talks about him