Hmm. I'm stressed, depressed, overwhelmed. And this is not the first time it's happening. Over and over again, nothing changes. Neither me nor what causes it. My ask is simple. Listen to me, I'm not ready and leave me alone. I'm happy, safe and sound. Don't take that away from me. I'm scared of getting married to a stranger. I'm scared of sexual abuse. I'm scared of the uncertainty it holds. I like predictable things. And yeah, you raised me. But nothing is gonna make you understand the child you birthed. Whenever you send me a profile or initiate a Convo on that, my mind goes to the worst case scenario and just want to harm myself. That harm is the only thing I know can make you listen to me and think I'm being serious. I skip food, i get sad and it is a vicious cycle. I cannot get out of it myself and I need help.