I feel annoyed because I feel like my friends think I’m weird/ don’t take me seriously.Im friends with people between both genders, and one time I was at a swim party and I was on a slide, and she was blocking the entrance, and messing with me so I tried to move around her and I accidentally stepped on her.She then go mad and called me a pervert even though it was an accident and she told a lot of other people in friends with.She forgot, but I found out people still think I’m a weirdo.It doesn’t help that I try to be funny but I often end up falling on my face and making people think I’m more weird.And another person in my friend group constantly tries to push me away when I try to hang out with them.My friends did tell me they care about me, and I genuinely think they do, but sometimes in my mood swings I feel they don’t.Am I just overthinking everything, or are they being rude.Idk but I always struggled with suicidal feelings and I feel it’s better if I just go away.