I feel like this sound really immature but i just feel so ignored, like a floater friend that nobody genuinely likes. Aside from that, my family relations suck too. My grandma always compares me to my perfect cousin like i get it bro. I know you wish you had them as your grandkid instead. You tell me to achieve well in school and when i do you dont even acknowledge it. Im on track to getting an honours yet you continue to berate me about how im “underweight” and a waste of my height. Instead of being happy for me or celebrsting anything you just point out insecurities i didnt even realise i had. I genuinely just wish someone cared about me. It was my birthday and people who i thought were closest to me didnt even remember. I feel as though i have no impact to anyone and thats what scares me. If i left, nobody would genuinely care.