Being bullied growing up by my own two older siblings, my friend being a reason why I was suicidal as well, and I grew up with social issues because of incidents that occurred throughout elementary. It's summer now, I'm past all of the depression and I started gaining confidence in myself. But I don't know, I don't know if I have what it takes. I've been alone all summer I've lied to everyone saying that I've been talking to my online friends. I've only been talking to my girlfriend a few times per week, my own friend I've been with for almost a decade replaced me with their partner. It's hard to even talk to him because he just brushes me off or says that he's busy with his own partner because all they do is talk all day and hang out. I'm so afraid that he'll do the same when school begins. I'll be all alone. I won't have my gf with me. I won't have any friends. I'll be alone again, even when I'm not depressed anymore. I don't know what I did wrong I wish life could be happy again.