I don’t like self harm. I don’t like pain, I feel gross even thinking about flesh and yuck! But I’m also so curious about it? I would never harm another person, if I ever even had a thought like that I would turn myself in because that’s disgusting! I do sometimes cut myself just a bit though, just to see the red, how it drips and the weird darkness. It makes me in awe to realize I’m alive, life isn’t just something that passes by - it’s all just really real! After I do it I get all grossed out and whine, but I really am SHOCKED I’m somehow a real thing, that Earth and the universe exists! It’s so magical! Life isn’t beautiful and precious, I am inlove with it all. Ik self harm isn’t a good way to realize I’m alive but life really blends in to me, I’ve only done it twice and both times I made sure to bandage it well, so don’t worry haha! Ig this isn’t rlly a vent tho? Cuz I adore living so much. I kinda just felt weirded out by myself 😭