I'm probably not gonna get to celebrate my bday at my moms house or it's gonna be a rlly bad mood as well as I'm prob gonna get a lot more ||neglected|| again because my mama Is gonna get ||surgery|| soon like today or tomorrow and my step dads mom js ||died|| from what ik so I feel even worse now and I feel guilty and shifty for being upset about my bday I didn't know my step dad mom that much I met her like once and my mama's ok she's js getting something removed and my step dad js came in and said he's leaving so I'll have to babysit and figure out what to make for my siblings for dinner but my parents have a strict rule about no using the stove or oven while they are gone so yeah I js wanna curl up in a ball and sob I'm so fucking tired and so much is happening at once and I have so much shit to do and I can't even ask for a break because it's not like my mom or step dad asked for this and my older sister won't help and is js in her room all day while I babysit I can't do this any