can i feel jealous? to someone that more unfortunate from me but more get love by people? i forgot how it feels to be loved, i forgot to loved myself. i forgot how to loved again. alas, can i at least feels someone loving me? i'm tired of loving someone while no one loved me back. it exhausting, i want to feels too. am i not good enough? am i not work hard enough? am i not worth enough? am i not human enough? I need that embrace, my souls yearn for it, the warmth back like when kid. i feels lonely, someone help me, so tired, stop this, i want to disappear, kill me, stop it, no its not good, somebody save me, am i not good enough? im sane completely, oh forgive me, is there any change? its sooo noisy, shut up, ohhh wow this kid sulking again, no wonder no one love you, unworthy, i hope you disappear.