My self esteem is so low I genuinely believe I'm an NPC, and I serve no purpose. I mean obviously i don't view myself as a literal game NPC but you get the idea. And i genuinely feel so worthless, i face discrimination everyday for my sexuality and identity (yes I'm queer and inside the closet), people at school, home, online constantly make fun of me and bully me, they make me feel like the most shittiest person on earth, and I'm fat so i constantly get fatphobic comments. On certain days I feel like I should just give up on life. This is one of the days. I try so hard to help others so that maybe I matter, but they never actually care about me and in the end they leave me for other people. I genuinely don't see myself getting past 16. I don't see a point on living. I try to find a reason, but i fail every time. I just want to let out how i've been feeling these past years cuz I can't handle it anymore. I hope I get to live longer.