My girlfriend who I don’t love is so so sweet. When we got together I already warned her I just can’t properly feel emotions and I don’t love her, probably never will. She said she didn’t care though, she loved me and if I ever realized I had feelings for someone at all I could leave her for them, since she understood how impossible that would be and how happy I would feel to be able to love. I fell inlove now, just not for her. I left her, she let me. But the stupid thing is - I miss her so much. I didn’t miss her like this before, in fact I wanted her to leave me! It’s so frustrating to have someone who compliments everything you do when you can’t think anything of them. But now she really has left me and I want to cling to her so badly, I know it’s messed up. She’s pretty, smart, funny, kind. She did everything for a guy like me who never loved her, even hated her. And now she has the time to get over me and love a decent guy, but now I want her to be near me again.