hey astro, no thats actually so fucking valid. i hope u get ur own laptop or ipad or phone or whatever it is soon for ur sake and i dont wanna say u dont need to be on here bc maybe u do, maybe it keeps u alive, ill never know ig but its alright if ur not on here as long as ur comfortable and safe ml but also, dont js suddenly go off, try slowly, maybe 5 mins everynight, maybe less, hope u get better❤️-f.g