You caused me a lot of pain and a lot of missed opportunities. You did also tolerate a lot from me; my drinking being the main one, and I appreciate the nice things you would do as a stand alone entity. But you were incapable of showing me the most basic respect and loyalty in our relationship which makes those nice things benign. I know you got off to seeing the pain in my face when you would play your little mind games and I think you thought you got away with a lot of disloyalty behind my back because I held my tongue and didn’t stick around long enough to truly find out what you were up to. But it was pretty obvious you had a lust addiction problem and an attention problem and that you weren’t loyal in our relationship which only made everything I was already trying to deal with worse by allowing myself to continue a relationship with you. Which is ultimately my fault and not yours when I knew I should have just cut you off. I regret dating you but ultimately am trying to forgive.