feel like I'm letting everybody down. I just jerk off, play videogames, watch reels. Now that summers over, it'll be better. But still, I can hardly handle not being occupied with one of these things for longer than a few minutes unless I have some other guided activity. But every day from school I get home, jerk off, scroll reels, hop on games with my friends. I want to go outside but I'm scared. I want to try something new but I'm scared. I'm weak and small and never the best in the room at anything.
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