everything is getting boring. I can't even enjoy my daily activities, I've been in my room for ages. I feel nauseous. I SH. I try to make others happy yet nothing works. I try my best to stay alive. I AM TRYING. yet they all tell me "just get better" I AM TRYING TO GET BETTER YOU DUMBASSES. It pisses me off. I want to just end it. Yet, deep inside i know if i do. they'll only start saying good things about me. I always try to be a giver, helping yet i get called a greedy and selfish person?? I try my best to walk outside. I try my best not to isolate myself. I can't help my PTSD, ADHD,Depression etc. And my friends tell me "just dont be depressed" Yea. Tell that to a person who got proffessionaly diagnosed with Depression and also has been to a mental hospital. I hate everything.