I don't know what it is, it's just life just keeps getting boring and boring each day, each minute, each second, I mean yeah I smile here and there, but is it real, I'm starting to feel like I have no emotions anymore, I hate to say it like that cause it seems like when I vent or talk to somebody nowadays, it sounds corny just cause of this generation, I hate the way I look, I hate the way my body looks, I don't like the fact im such an overthinker, over do er, how i have bad trust issues, or just how my mind is in general, I hate having adhd, and my brain constantly running around and I can't focus on one thing, and the court system just takes that as not paying attention, I'm always zoning out, and getting asked "am I ok" but I never vent to anybody nor do I like it when I do, cause that just shows them, how weak I get when that topic is brought up