i just started college and i have a handle on nothing. classes are already so difficult and it’s the first week. don’t know how to study or take notes or stay organized. don’t know how to get involved. don’t know how to balance everything. lost all my friends from high school over bullshit. lost my 2 best friends over one of their boyfriends. i think im losing my boyfriend too. we keep arguing and he isn’t good at communicating but he’s the only person i have. i’m so alone. i’m so behind in life. i have no license. barely any money. barely have a handle on college. i’m struggling so much and i even think my therapist ghosted me after i ghosted her when things were going well. my life has felt like constant hell. people have always said how college is better. i can’t live life if it’s going to be this constant 360 of struggling, get better for a month, then going through the worst. i feel like i can’t do this anymore and i don’t have a handle on anything. i want to die.