Today's my birthday. I wonder if you're thinking of me. Wonder if you're thinking about messaging me, if you're wondering if I'd say thank you. Maybe we could catch up on what's been happening in our lives. We don't talk anymore but I think it's better. I'm not sure I could handle it if we did. I ache. Almost constantly now. It's only been a few months. The ache isn't as painful as it is empty. I long for your warmth again. I am always so cold. I want to fall asleep in your arms again, to smell your perfume. My thoughts recently : Life is a series of opening and closing doors. I prefer to keep my door open for people, should they wish to return. I know some people don't deserve it, but seeing the good in people has always been a flaw of mine. I hope someday I'll see you standing in that doorframe. I hope you've left something in my life to come back for.