My boyfriend and I have been dating for a while. I love him so much, more than anyone else in the world. And the idea of him with someone else really makes me so angry and sad. He means so much to me. We're gay, two guys who love each other, but I'm a trans man and he's cis. He's the bottom and im the top so it's really difficult for me to please him in the way he really wishes. I'm trying to find a prosthetic that works for me, but I don't know if it's ever going to be enough for him. He wants to give blowiobs and handjobs and I just can't give him that in the way he wishes. And i want nothing more than that, I would do anything to have a penis but it's not attainable for me right now, it's such an intense surgery and it's a very big decision impacting my overall hormonal health too. We love each other so much for who we are but the sex is putting a big strain on our relationship. I just hope I can find an attachment that's close enough, and enough for him, and enough for me