I moved out of my hometown to be with someone and in return they secluded me from all of my friends and family. I had no one which made it tough when we split up. I struggle with the day to day dealings with my depression, wondering if im always over reacting because whenever something happens thats all people say, that i am overreacting. I do my hardest to be there for everyone when they're struggling but even when i reach out, im left by myself. my closest friend ditched me through my own birthday for a booty call. Usually when I tell people I'm not okay, they think I am either making a joke, or not that bad. Or they believe telling me about 'all the things I have to live for' is going to cure me and not make me feel unrelenting guilt and shame about feeling the way I do. I can't help feeling the way that I do. i don't want to be here anymore, but when i tell anyone that i'm 'dramatic' and that ill be fine if i just go and have a nap, or take more meds. kill me