I fucked up, did something I wasn't supposed to do, made terrible fucking decisions so now Im just living with this fucking regret rn. I wanna kkill myself so badly bcs this guilt might actually eat me alive. IM not those type of people that can just brush it off. It fucking sucks this feeling sucks. Imma just get back to my drugs to escape this shitty ass feeling fuck all of this FUCK MAN FUCK. Why do i gotta be so shitty