i have genuinely never felt more alone in my entire life. it feels like everything that is around me has been placed there so it eventually hurts me when the time has come. why can i not just be a normal, happy person and be able to live a normal life filled with joy? i am constantly consumed with such a deep sadness all the time and it just makes me want to leave and go somewhere so far that memories of me vanish. i hate everyone nd everhrhing and i just want to be alone. it’s not fair that everyone gets their chance in life and i… don’t. why does everyone forget that im human too! i want to have fun and laugh too. i feel sad too. my feelings ALSO get hurt like you because im. a. human. i feel like im on Gods wrong side. what if he dosent love me? what if, im wasting my life and he never forgives me. i will rot in hell and be more lonley than ever. i will cry from the pain and burn so bad that i will have no choice but the scream. i hate this. it’s not fair