im not okay. at all. i cant vent or even cry to my friends bc i dont want to burden them. i cant focus in class anymore. i cant feel things anymore. i need to cry every min but i cant. not anywhere but my room. im barely speaking to my parents now. im realizing that becoming a teen sucks. i can barely trust any of my friends now. Earlier, i was crying so fricking hard bc i had a massive fight with my mom. my stomach was in pain. my legs, back, arms were in pain. my head was spinning. the worst part? my friends talk shit and betray me like im some shitty doll without feelings. they compare themselves to me every time, saying im on a lower level and i cant do shit right. i believe them. i agree with all the stupid bullshit they say bc theres no point in denying anything anymore. im so done with skl. im so done with life in general. ive tried stopped, cutting everyone off. i failed. im scared to try and lose everything and everyone. what do i do now.? im lost in this world. i feel empty.