I don't know who it is I see in the mirror. I don't feel alive. I'm a lonely person but I wasn't for a period of time but now I am again. I haven't been able to reach out to others since the day I was rejected by someone for wanting to be their friend. No matter how much effort I put into my schoolwork, my grades are still bad. People tutor me but I just can't focus. I feel like a idiot. People like to tell me that their friends likes me in a mocking way. I've had crushes(?) before but now everyone is just dull to me. People stare at me like I'm a weirdo. It's difficult to get up from my bed to go to school that I end up telling my mom I'm sick. It's gotten to a point where she no longer believes me and drags me out of bed and yells at my face that I'm not going to graduate and that I'm just lazy. If I keep stalling, she hits me. My cats, dog and younger sister are mainly the reason why I'm still alive. I don't want her to feel how I felt when our older sister attempted suicide.