i was in a relationship with a man i never should've been with but fell so madly in love with. we were different, yet had a lot in common, different politics, different views of sexuality and gender, different cultures, but he made me laugh, he made me feel safe, he made me more confident. he saved me at my lowest point but he also put me right back not long after. he wouldn't tell anyone i was his girlfriend, i was just his friend or roommate, and it hurt me. one night we finally went all the way while drunk and i told him i love him for the first time, then rolled over and fell asleep. the next day he dumped me. i cried for 3 weeks. we ended up living together while being friends and i tried to move on and he ended up ruining the relationship i could've had with someone else because he wanted me back. i took him back. i ended up leaving 2 months later. its been over 4 years and i can't get over him. i keep driving by our old house, i dream of him every night. i don't know what to do