i vented to my "friend" about being suicidal and she told me it was a sin i find it disrespectful honestly,, ive been thinking if i should die but i was always so scared of ending up in hell... her telling me that just pisses me off bcuz it feels like a demonization of people who struggled to the point of wanting to die i fear this is a part of religious trauma now i told my friends about this one of them told her to not do that (which i appreciate a lot) she apologized but i still dont feel like interacting with her thinking back to my past experiences,, it took about a year to forgive someone who hurt me sometimes i never forgave. and i feel like its gonna be like that again,, because im not sure about her anymore i was never really close with her, i was just neutral but that geniunely brought it so low... ive been ignoring her at class and i know thats not right but its hard to interact with someone who hurt you so deeply even if not exactly on purpose it still hurts so bad, sorry