So I downloaded bumble as I don’t go out often and also wanted an excuse to show off my cute outfits, find people with common interests, go on a nice date, and ngl was also bored. I matched with one guy and he seems nice and even made reservations for the weekend but now I’m thinking about it and thinking that I should’ve just not downloaded the app. I’m attracted to men but they always end up doing something that gives me the ick. And also I don’t like it when people touch me and it makes me very uncomfortable (especially due to past trauma as a kid). Maybe I’m just asexual? And should I cancel the date? And I also think sometimes that I prefer being a concept rather than actually being pursued because it may be nice in the beginning but it ends up being such a disappointment being with that person and massive headaches.