Ive moved to germany awhile ago as a mechanic for the nurburgring, the "childhood dream" as some say, but now after about a year it feels wierd, i feel sad, im alone, barely anyone after work to go to or hangout with, or nobody to talk to. I miss my family but also i think its just being in precense of people who actually like you and want to talk to you. i dont care about the nurburgring anymore, i drive a normal car because i dont care about having a "track car" anymore, i just turned 21, i dont know what to do, i wish i could be anywhere but here. I had a major accident on the nurburgring a while back i flipped my car and havent felt the same on the road since, im in debt because of expenses and track costs, i wish i could go back to my old life, but something in me doesnt want to give up even though every feeling is gone