Ive just left a friendgroup where no one was in the right, and there was someone else in there who fucked everything up by spreading rumors to each other in the group because he was obsessive over this one friend. Ive left it some time ago but their whole group disbanded after that friend was kicked out. I still feel an intense rage, more like Im still trying to figure out how to cope with it. Because there was nothing I could do to prevent that. And not only that I just found out I was cheated on several years ago in the same semester. And Ive just connected with people this semester more but realized that it doesnt matter because I know none of that will last forever. There isnt a reason for that. Im angry but tired at the same time, almost like people are just so disconnected from their own emotional state or the awareness of the world that it pisses me off. Sometimes I feel the need to vent out my anger, but what for. It doesnt matter, none of it does. But ill keep going.