It feels like I’ve been through hell and back, started my life over countless times and lost the most important loved ones in my life.. that isn’t the problem I’m facing right now, lost my job went back to my old job as I need income to support my family and my 4 year old son. I’m having problems with my finance who thinks social media is more important then her relationship, go figure majority of her followers are men who msg and leave comments daily.. if I say something I’m wrong, if I have standards of respect for myself, it’s self care to her.. if there’s something I don’t like she goes cold and dismisses me like I walked in and out of her life.. no fight to keep me at all.. I feel like my whole life I’ve come second. I don’t wanto be the angry and combative person I was growing up. I wanto be happy, I deserve love, I deserve to come home and someone is happy I made it through the day. Someone to tell me everything okay and they are proud of me.. just wanto feel safe..