I need to stop crying sh the songs that remind me of when I was little. It’s so stupid but I miss the childhood my mom tried to give me. She worked so hard and for so long just for the man she married to cheat on her and cheat her out of everything. I miss soft lights on Christmas, and the snow I used to walk barefoot on for fun, the feeling of calmness, everything was still. I remember what I got one of my first Christmases. Now I have to celebrate it in an apartment because I lost my home, my Mom has no connection within it to decorate it. I’m so fucking numb yet I hurt so much in so many more ways. I wish I died a long time ago, I wouldn’t be in this terrible spot if I had, I’m so ready to go
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