I lost my bestfriend, because I push my emotion onto her. It started when she started to becaming distant, and started to hanging out someone I mention I dislike, which is of course she has a reason to became distant as she mention she felt hurt when I left her and mock her in some way, which I apologise. It was okay at firts, but then when I tried to talk to her but she look heavily distracted and distant, and when that person i dislike, let's just call her lavander, came to us she shelter her with her umbrella, she then started to chat excitedly with lavander not facing me, which hurt hurt me a lot, and I just, 'okay, let's just go.' I go to talk with other People. The finally blow hit, when I saw her walk with lavander, I lost something valuable at that time, and because I was both hurt I just ignored her wave. My fault, doesn't excuse the shit I've done. We talk about it I apologise, and apologise, but things been of course, horrible.