So... before i start, just know that whatever mean things you want to say, ive already told myself a million times over, and then some. i am struggling, and i know that my questionable choices may not be understandable. I have been in a relationship (started online, but we have met 5 times) for a year, with a man. he didnt tell me about his relationship to begin with, and once he confessed to already being in a relationship, i was too scared to let go. i have never felt so seen or understood before, or loved. he described a relationship that was not good, only staying together because of their daughter. turns out that wasnt true. they got married in october, we started talking in september. i recently just found out about the marriage. i cut him off instantly, and we had no contact for a while, but he came back, begging, wanting to explain himself.. so i let him. bullshit explanation, i am just the weakest person ever. we are now talking again. its painful.