I've been severaly depressed more than half of my life. I suffered from self harm, suicidal thoughts, insomnia, and social anxiety. I used to think I was disgusting and I still do. Middle school was an absolute hell for me. I'd get bullied for being quiet that it made me think it was bc I was fat or ugly. Ik unsure if thats still the reasons why. My family is extremely religious and I'm a closeted bisexual with internalised homophobia. I'm horrified and almost throw up at the thought of ever coming out to my friends and family. I can never feel good or decent in my household. They talk about how lazy I am and how I'm disrespectful and fat. I'm not happy at home or at school. I'm going to 9th grade and I'm terrified. I don't want to please don't make me go I'm so scared