I would rather be anyone else. I hate myself more than anyone else could ever. I hate making people worry about me, but I am also attention seeking by asking for help. I think I have all of these mental disorders like ADHD, depression, anxiety and BPD, but i feel it would be attention seeking to tell my parents that. I can't tell anyone anything without Para, the voice that tells me that I am a Sadist and feeds into those thoughts, telling me I am being dramatic and influenced and that I should just die. Sitting in my bedroom alone while the house is asleep at 11 pm holding a knife and threatening Para that I am going to use it isn't usually something that someone my age should be doing.
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