I want someone to tell me what I am, even if they’re not an expert or whatever. I really like the taste of my own blood and I really wanted to try my brother’s blood when it got on me. I know it sounds so fucking cringe (or at least it does to me) but it’s just true. I also kind of get horny at the sight of blood or gore when no one is around, like I lowk have a pic of Mrs. Worden from Ed Gein’s case file all hung up and mutilated and it looks so gorgeous. I’m also having urges to just see blood, no matter the source (as long as Ik the person + it’s not an animal/younger) and I started jokingly threatening my brother and he told me he was scared of me. I don’t want him to be scared. Please just someone, anyone let me know what the hell this is. I fucking hate it so much, and I just want to put a name on it so I don’t feel messy. Ik it sounds so fucking cringe and fake and stupid but just please believe me. I’m sorry, please.