I feel like I’m a loser in life, and I’m really insecure about that. I feel like I have no personality, I can’t make the same amount of good grades like other people can (although I’m in a special advanced school), Im not good at anything and it’s making me feel really bad about myself. I kinda just feel like a blob that exists because I used to be good at making grades, keeping up with tasks, actually making new friends. But now I just feel like I’m way more painfully awkward to the point some people have trouble talking to me and I have no qualities I can bring up with anyone because I’m just not enough. Im just decent at everything and I’m too weird to make a conversation/friend, sometimes it gets to no matter how hard I try. I think this can also stem from how I slightly dislike my own self, I have internalized homophobia and a hard time seeing my future although I want it so bad it’s just so hard for me to imagine myself because how much of a loser I have been academically. Tanks!