I don't think I'll ever end up with a man who's not abusive. And don't say durr your friendzone MEN DON'T WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH ME LOL. I'm not attractive at all so I dated other men who were unattractive too and instead of finding my ugly match who also wanted a marriage and kids, I only end up with depressed, abusive, and controlling men with anger issues. Twice have I dated a man who threatened to kill himself all the time. Every time. I really am giving up.