everything is too much. I can't handle being the person so many other people depend on. I can't even keep my own shit together, and other people are waiting for me to fix their problems??? and now I'm getting written up at work for finding and fixing the problem that students were having enrolling in this fucking class that I'm somehow fucking responsible for helping students enroll in even though that's not part of my fucking job description because I'm not a fucking specialist, I'm an assistant, and if you want me to do a fucking specialist's work, maybe pay me the extra thousand bucks a fucking month. but no, instead I don't get paid for it but i DO get in trouble for not doing it perfectly. fuck.