I'm relieved when my partner is out. I feel bad saying that but after ten years of marriage and his unwillingness to be active in his healing, I'm happy when I have a day to myself. His constant negativity about everything weighs on me constantly. Combined with how easily overstimulated and frustrated he gets, I end up dissociating a lot when he's around. This isn't to say I don't understand. He's depressed and has untreated ADHD, but I'm the same + multiple chronic illness and I'm expected to be upbeat all the time and do everything around the house. I'm fucking tired of it, especially now that I have a job. I'm working 6hrs then I come home and keep doing domestic tasks until I go to bed. I barely get time to just sit because he needs something (food, water, physical intimacy for validation/"closeness"). I'm tired.