Not close with my family, only one friend. To summarise im an isolated fuck. Thats why when i did my exams recently i thought maybe just maybe if i did well that would prove i have something talent maybe or even just a reason to continue. A passion. One subject i even liked. My grades ended up awful. So im taking a gap year. My friends leaving for uni. My only friend. Ill be here alone. Possibly having to retake an exam, seeing teachers who thought id do well. Reapplying for college. Pretending i can bare more time alone. In my house again. Not close with my family i wish i was i think everyone believes im weird, im quieter i suppose but i try to be nice. I just wish i had someone i cant always rely on my one friend. She needs me strong. Its a shame ive just realised how little i am insignificant i mean. If im not good socially nor physically nor academically what am i and why do i bother.