He’s seen me numerous times and still thinks I’m ugly, or maybe he does it to make her feel good, I’m not sure. No one has ever called me ugly before which is why it upsets me when it’s coming from someone I admired for years and assumed was the sweetest person:/ It pains me so much, but then I get hit with whatever happened during the month of December, when he spent his entire time relentlessly abusing me in their own slang under her x account. The tweets were so uncomfortable I started to question if he’s the same guy i interacted through out all these years. Maybe it was a lesson or maybe it was a blessing? I’m not sure, but that exact day I saw what the real monster looked like. He was always there and I was never aware of it. I try my best to block out the painful memories during the time of December, but I could memorise each and every word he said to me under her tweets back then. They really did ruin an innocent person who didn’t know their game.