How do you do it when so many people are dependent on you for so long? Ive done this for 15 years, no village. Just me. Every. single. day. for years on end. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't care if I eat. I dont care if I ever see the light of day again. I dont care if I ever talk to another soul. I don't care if I make it out alive. I do not care. Ive dwindled down to almost 100 pounds. My hair is falling out. Im constantly sick and in chronic pain. Who tf cares.