Last night my boyfriend just admitted to being actively suicidal — as in, he had an ongoing plan to commit suicide. It's pathetic, but I figured it out through his tiktok reposts and collections. At first, I was a bit panicked. I was overwhelmed about what I was meant to do; do I reach out to the proper authorities or do I just leave it be? Eventually, I decided to confront him about what I saw. He confessed the truth, but didn't show any signs that he was going to stop. I accepted it at front, I knew whay I was signing up for when I got into this relationship. He was already depressed before we got together. To be honest, I was expecting for this to happen anyway. I just didn't think it'd go this way. I'll let him do what he wants. I don't care whether he follows through it or not, I'm going through a tough time myself. It's a selfish decision to stay quiet, I know. It feels like I've murdered him myself just by making this decision. But there's no other choice for me.