People just don't understand. It has to be an even number or a 5 it has to be my way or else I break down If something other people have touched a lot ends up in my hands I have to sanitize the area it touched and wash my hands. I have an anxiety attack during every storm I'm scare for flying I'm scared of cars I'm scared of bugs I'm scared of spiders I'm scared of losing people I'm scared I'm being judged I'm scared people secretly hate me I'm scared of so many things and every time I've tried to tell my parents they just tell me I'm safe especially with storms they just say your in the house nothing will happen but I'm still scared. I want to go to therapy or take a mental health test to actually get diagnosed. Not to diagnose myself but I think I have gad some sort of OCD and I think I might be depressed along with all the fears up there that are pretty severe so yeah