I have always had a honor of a son and brother mentally when it comes to my brother and sister, but recently its at the tipping point that I might be driven to leave home, or take it further. I have been traumatize emotionally and mentally for years by those two, never been given proper and consistent respect, personal insults to my character all while I can't take it "personal" even if they used such words, yell at me and my brother over small mistakes, never paid u back the money we gave them, and most importantly, it doesn't feel like a family, just a group of benefactors, coworkers, and associates, and any love to be found is the bare minimum when promised in full.