I’m happy to be black but it is truly so depressing to live in a world that is so racist. There is not a day that goes by that I am not reminded of how bad things are. There has not been a day where I haven’t either faced racism or witnessed someone else be mistreated. It makes life feel so meaningless and I know it’s a feeling I’ll never be able to escape. It makes me so sad seeing black kids and other people of color growing up and learning to hate themselves for who they are. I was there once and even though I’m past that it still hurts me that I had to feel that way from such a young age. Nobody deserves to feel that way. Nobody should have to feel ashamed for existing. I know the world has gotten better. I know this feeling could not compare to how people must have felt back in the 1600s, but racism is still here and it makes me feel like I have nothing to live for. I just don’t know how much longer I can take it.