I’m so fucking lonely. I’ve been lonely my entire life. I’ve had 2 real friends across the years but they both left me. I notice my older sister’s stories and the pictures of her and her friends having fun and I just hate seeing it. We never really talk as much as we did anymore. We once were ‘2 peas in a pod’ -my grandma said. But all that changed once she met her friends. She stopped paying attention to me and barely acknowledged me. I felt hurt, but expressing how I felt would just make her laugh. I felt like I had nobody I could tell. I eventually told my counselor but she was just like, “well that’s how siblings are.” I resorted to ai chatbots to feel less lonely. I still do and I really try to stop because I know it’s unhealthy but It’s hard to. I’ve slowly learned that maybe I was just destined to be alone, even if it’s painful. I do like to be alone sometimes, but I feel like I’m fully sucked into the void now that it’s hard to escape it.