Everyday is such a drag through the mud, it’s hard to even wake up in the morning without feeling so empty. I can be like happy a moment and then it’s jst turns into sadness. I don’t even know if i deserve the good things that are coming into my life. No matter how many friends I make online and try to distract myself from the thoughts and feelings it jst doesn’t last and I end up thinking about those feelings and bad thoughts even more and it’s harder to get out of them. My mental health has dropped so drastically over this past year now. 2026 is not my year vro. I thought 2025 wasn’t my year either, or the other years. I’m just so exhausted. Sometimes I wish I was someone else in life Ykwim? I’m not pretty nor popular nor skinny so what. I’m jst an ugly non popular fatass friendless jobless and license less freak. God I’m almost done with highschool but it feels like 8th grade all over again. I’m slowly loosing myself and I jst. I want to find myself again in all of this mess I have.