I’m 18. I’ve have tried to kill myself 6 times. My first attempt was when I was 12 years old. I hate myself so much my skin crawls. I’m scared. I never know when my fucking brain decided that today should be my last. I didn’t think I would be alive this long. I feel like I’m so behind. I feel like I’m in a fucking hole and it makes it so much easier to lean towards killing myself. I’m supposed to go to college on the 14th. I’m so scared. I don’t feel ready. I feel so alone. Maybe it would be easier if I ended it. I hate being alone.
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